brain freeze

I scream and nobody hears,
I scream and everyone hears but no one listens.
I feel like I don't exist
I feel like I fell into a deep black void
and we became one

the world to me is a deep black void
my life is an endless road
leading into shit.
the stuff's too viscous to let the sun shine through
so I forever wallow in the darkness that surrounds me
with no other option
and no escape key

at least put your silver bullets through my head
when I face you
making enough noise for me to notice when you're
sneaking up on me isn't the same.
at least give me a fighting chance
although I doubt I'll fight
I'd be too weak from fighting myself
from fighting to stay alive
for one more day

I hate you all
I HATE YOU ALL FUCK YOU
you think you're so damn holy
and if I had the chance I'd make it so



10/01/2002